http://crazymama.today.com Just another Today.com weblog Tue, 15 Sep 2009 03:32:44 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en Going back to school has been one of the most humbling experiences of my life with the exception of becoming a parent. I have noticed that 13 years since starting college for the first time there are a few things that still remain the same Young people think old people are ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/09/14/notes-from-the-cafeteria/ The further I get away from the Zoloft the more I see how different I am becoming. This is kind of a scary thing for me. Not only am I having to confront who I was before PPD but I am also having to confront my old demons. I typically feel ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/08/24/in-my-head/ It has been exactly one year since my body gave me a giant "Fuck you!" in the form of PPD/OCD/Anxiety. In case you missed it, here is where that adventure all began. http://18yearsandcounting.blogspot.com/2008/08/into-abyss.html It has been the scariest thing I have ever dealt with in my life. And it is also something I ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/08/16/happy-anniversary/ Zoloft is now completely gone. I still have some withdrawals but am feeling like my old self again. My current quandary is that I don't really know who that is anymore. I still obsess about death. It is not all consuming like it was when I first was diagnosed with PPD ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/07/29/who-am-i/ I totally understand Brenda Slaby. You may or may not have heard her story (http://abcnews.go.com/GMA/Story?id=5935342&page=1) but a couple of years ago she left her daughter in her minivan in the school parking lot where she worked. All day. In the hot summer sun. Her daughter was discovered later that afternoon, ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/07/15/strength-or-stress/ Next month marks the one year anniversary of my Post Partum Depression/Anxiety/OCD diagnosis. This is a milestone in a couple very distinct ways, but first and foremost it means that my time with Zoloft may be about up. I guess typically you are medicated for year to eighteen months after ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/07/08/ugh/ Thanks to reader Sarah for reminding me to post a breast update. I forgot that some people might be reading this who don't know me in real life and have no idea that I have had my mammo results for about a week now. Brace yourself for a long and ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/06/18/continued/ Those who know me best are probably thinking, "Sometimes?" in their puny, shriveled up little brains. But for the uninitiated, this may be a startling revelation (ala Jimmy Hoffa's final resting place). Yes, people on anti-depressants can be un-happy. I didn't know this until I started taking them. What I imagined ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/06/07/sometimes-i-am-a-shit/ I am the youngest patient in the waiting room by probably 30 years. I guess that is what you get when you live in a town with one of the largest Active Adult communities in Northern California and the Dr. you are seeing has an office right across the street. ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/05/29/to-be-continued/ Once, when I was probably in the 4th grade and at about 9pm on a weeknight, I called 911. See, I had gotten out of my bath and discovered that I was all alone in the house. At that time we lived on 5 acres out in the middle of ... http://crazymama.today.com/2009/05/11/i-am-starting-to-understand/